Saturday night.. Sunday Morning....

Saturday night.. Sunday Morning....

Posted by Annie on September 19, 2010 at 1:57 PM

Moments like this really sadden me, it's 4 something am, James has woken up. He's sitting at the top of the stairs in the dark. Not scared, not afraid of the dark in any way shape or form. Sitting there in his own world. Harry is now wide awake, so might aswell get up.
When I sit and think about things it upsets me so much..... How different things are to what we expected, hopes and dreams. The hopes and dreams of them sharing the double pushchair, playing enjoying each others company.
In contrast to those hopes James hates the double pushchair, they have separate single ones. Harry follows james round with enthusiasm , James walks off.
I love James and Harry dearly. It doesn't matter what the outcome is along as James Is safe and happy, even if it is in his own world.
I love all my boys very much, I'm  yet at the same time.......